take a deep breathe

semester 3 kuliah hai its been a long time i didn't come to here. aku sempet baca ulang apa yang pernah aku tulis dii sini sewaktu sma dulu. jujur aga lucu sih, because the only problem i have it's just about highschool romance lol. tapi gapapa, i think everyone feel the same thing at that time (mencari pembenaran wkwkw) today, i wanna wrote another thing that i think the future me have to read this some day. kenapa? ya gatau sih, nanti dimasa depan kita cari tau, krn kalo sekarang aku juga gatau apa alasannya xixixi. sebenermya ada banyak banget hal yang terjadi setelah 2021 lalu.  di penghujung 2021 i have a new problem  (bangga krn ga lg cuma mikirin cinta cinta biarpun sebenernya maish gamon) tentang perkuliahan, mulai dari ga tau mau kuliah apa dan dimana and ga ngerti ttg what is snm, sbm, and also i feel disgusted if i come to uni with jalur mandiri. at that time i thought anak mandiri it's jst a dumb ppl who entered unii just with their money and they're had no ...

Mom, I grew up without realizing how hard you've had to survive everything alone since you were a child. You always listened to all my stories, even when you were about to go to bed after doing all your work throughout the day. You were always excited to hear everything I told you, but I never asked you, "How about you, Mom? How was your day? What did you do all day? Are you happy today? Are you okay? Do you want or need something? Are you tired?" and anything else that I never realized you're still an ordinary human who needs someone to care and ask about your feelings. Sorry, I'm really sorry. I know you're not pretending to be okay, you just forget all your pain when you're around your child because you give all your mind to them and won't share it with yourself, even just for a small moment Mom, Now that I have become an adult at 19, and after living alone and far away from you, I truly understand your love, your struggles, and the story of your li...