take a deep breathe

Growing up with 2 brothers, ppl think it's sounds good and fun. I don't know  how to describe what i feel but i could say no.  Since i was child, me and my brother never say any good words each other. Sometimes i wonder how is it feel to have those brother who care, love, and soft to you. Cause i never did that.  We were grew up given each others pain. We're often hurting and hating each other than being sweet and nice. That's why we're not close and hate each other ( actually me, i hate my first brother SO BAD). Cause he neber treated me well since i was kid. I still remember when i was on the elementary school, i fight wiyh him and he slap my ear, and it makes my ears start "ngingggg"( he's 10 yrs older than me). I cry at that night, my mom and dad didn't at home and i picked my school bag, taking my chlotes cause i was just thinking to go away from him. Such a fool memories:( Now, i already 20 and i still hate him. He never change, he is what he...

 Don't know why but this night my heart feels so heavy. All the memories from august to december come and got my tears out. It's been a month maybe since i gave him a closure. yes i did it, not bcs i didn't like him anymore but because  i can't find anything that can be my reason to stay. At that night, if i'm not mistaken its 1am on 15th december. After tell him to end everything, I cried maybe for 3 hours, sorry but it's really hurt to let go of someone that i never though he will leave me this way. I remove him on that night from my wa, and ig. Cause i don't want to know everything abt him anymore.  For him, maybe i'm just a little thing that ever come to his life. But he never know how hard for me to forget someone i ever loved cause i can count with my finger how many ppl i ever love in my life, bcs it's not something that happened in many times. That's why it took me for a long time to get over him Although i still remember abt him even som...