Begin again

 Don't know why but this night my heart feels so heavy. All the memories from august to december come and got my tears out.

It's been a month maybe since i gave him a closure. yes i did it, not bcs i didn't like him anymore but because  i can't find anything that can be my reason to stay.

At that night, if i'm not mistaken its 1am on 15th december. After tell him to end everything, I cried maybe for 3 hours, sorry but it's really hurt to let go of someone that i never though he will leave me this way. I remove him on that night from my wa, and ig. Cause i don't want to know everything abt him anymore. 

For him, maybe i'm just a little thing that ever come to his life. But he never know how hard for me to forget someone i ever loved cause i can count with my finger how many ppl i ever love in my life, bcs it's not something that happened in many times. That's why it took me for a long time to get over him


Although i still remember abt him even sometimes i miss him, doesn't mean i want him back. I still remember how he let me go so easily without try anything to asked me to stay. It hurts a lot cause at that time i realize that he didn't love me that much, and maybe the goodbye text was something that he waited for. 


Now i just want to forget him and focus on myself. Cause this things already change my whole perspective of love and it's make me afraid too love someone again. But that's okay actually, cause i got so many dream to chase now. 


Let's rock these yearrrrr gurllll




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